Aug 17, 2011

Letting Go

Everyone goes through changes in life which are out of their control. It might be something traumatic like losing a loved one, or it could be something as simple as taking a detour near your home because of road construction. Both interrupt your life, but the severity it interrupts is quite different. If I am completely honest with you, for the most part I hate change. Not such a good character trait for someone who has had the rug pulled out from under them a few times in the last 7 years, and definitely not good for someone who desires a deep rooted upbringing for their kids with lasting friendships and one place to call home.

To be completely honest, I am sitting here trying to figure out why in the world I am about to go against everything I have believed in, invested in and cherished for the last 10 years of my childrens' lives. In just 5 days, my kids will be walking through the doors of PUBLIC SCHOOL! This is where you gasp! Or you roll your eyes? Or you giggle at my drama? Or in my case, you cry, pray and all of the above. I have absolutely no idea how this day has come about, or why I am making such a humongous deal over it. Maybe I need affirmation that it is going to be alright from all you public school moms, maybe I need pity from all my old friends who will be continuing to stay in the beautiful Christian bubble we created together, or maybe I just need to see how ridiculous I sound by doing a blog post and remember something I seem to keep forgetting. That something would be that God has a plan for my kids, and it is for GOOD! He is the one that allowed Skip's job to be removed, He is the one that opened the doors for our new ministry in Victoria, and He is the one that led me to the decision to put all the kids into public school this year.

I don't know what change you may be going through today, and I have no idea what the severity may be, but I do know you don't need to gasp, roll your eyes, or cry about it. You need to stop and pray. Right now, stop and pray and let go of control. Give your fears, your concerns, and your life's uncertainties to the creator of all things. He has our back, and for those we love, He has their backs too!

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."


Susan said...

AMEN!! God had THE plan for our lives, and more importantly HE will accomplish HIS goal and HIS plans and purposes for us. When we accept and stand in that truth we have peace that passeth understanding, even in the midst of the worst trials. Having just gone through the worst trial of our lives I KNOW this to be true.

Susan @ Blessed Assurances said...

I thought Matthew 5:14-16, when reading this... “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven." God bless you guys during the transistion! :)

Pam said...

Well, I'm not a "Susan" or "Susie" but I'll comment anyway. : )

Our kids are so much more resilient than we anticipate. I will be praying for your children, dear one.

Over the last 9 years my kids have gone to private school, public school, homeschool, public school in the city system where we currently live and now all in the county system of the same town.

It has not all been easy and without the shedding of some tears by all involved, but God has been in the midst of all of it -- and my kids have held their own academically, spiritually, and emotionally.

I am so grateful for the truth of Philippians 1:6 that I claim regularly over all three of my precious ones, and I will do the same over your three, friend.

You routinely inspire me, Susie, and I share your story with my husband often as we wait upon the Lord for our next assignment from Him while Trey has been unemployed.

Hugs to you and your family!

Anonymous said...

Oh Susie, I have been in your shoes and I can say look at it this way - Christians are meant to be out living their faith, in their actions not just their words. You don't know how God will use you or your children, but he will. Jesus' didn't stay safely in his home with people He loved but went out into the world. Parents are the first and best teachers of the faith - you have given them your best and now it is time to allow that light you have planted to guide other young people.

Bonnelle Pagel said...

I understand your tears and the anguish that goes along with this decision. We took our kids from a very small church school and put them into public school my daughter's senior year of high school. It was the hardest decision I had made up to that point. I shed BUCKETS of tears the Sunday I knew God was telling me they would be okay and that this is what He had called them to. It was painful for the kids and it was painful for me but in the end.... my daughter thanked me for sending them there because she felt it made her a more well-rounded individual and it helped her to understand the "real world" environment. God has GREAT plans for us AND our children and trusting Him in the process is what it's all about!

Praying for you & your children as you enter this new journey!!

Susie said...

Thank you all so much for your affirming words and truth you have shared! Praying for each of you in your own personal struggles and trials.